wtf wtf wtf! my specs is broken la. stupid shit. so tomorrow i won't be able to see anything. okay, maybe a bit, it's not that worse. but haiya. okay nevermind. anyways, i haven't been posting for the past few days due to school. so tired can. ac rehersals almost everyday la. stupid. i mean what's the point, it's still the same. then today's rehersal i'm damn pissed off by that woman. stupid shit la you. okay. i'm supposed to post a happy post today because i'm posting sad posts for the previous one. but it seems like i'm posting an angry one. oh well.

anyway. recalling the past few days, there's one thing i can't believe i did it. at music period, i actually cried for you. i don't know why. tears just seem to flow down from my eyes. my heart is crushed. totally crushed. but i'm somehow resigned to it alr. how naive of me to think that some miracle would actually happen, that you would change your mind or something. it's all in the past. i mean i used to think that in the past. but not anymore. please. i just want to start life all over again. back to reality man.

oh, and another thing. Anne Frank. she's such a sad person. there's a private self and a public self. absolutely true. but who will actually know? everybody just assume everything they see on the outside, public self. like Anne's mother and Dussel and some other people. and she had to suffer in silence. sad right. haiya. i dunno what to say alr la. shall blog some other time then. (:

my heart is broken so many times, i'm already used to it.